~Perspective~

I've been nasty lately. Not nice, sometimes downright mean to others. AND I felt "justified" by circumstances. Anyone ever feel like that?

I've been less than understanding with a co-worker, impatient with the kids and Gene (DH), snapped at my mom on the phone (Sorry Mom!), and this morning was the climax of it all....I was horrible to someone I didn't even know WITH the kids in the car.

You see...I have to park my car near the building where I work because the parking lot slants toward the road. My blazer has a crazy little thing it does when you park on a downhill....it won't start with anything below a half a tank of gas. So, I pull into the parking lot this morning WITH the kids in the car because there was another two hour delay at school. Gene plows our lot at work....so I bring the kids in and he'll take them to school when the lot is plowed.

When I realize that off to the side where I usually park....another employee from the business next door has parked her blue car sideways taking up two parking spaces. There was another car parked behind her (the correct way). SO, being in a mean, grumpy mood I parked in the space next to it....directly in FRONT of her car. Good....I'm thinking to myself....now she'll have to get her co-worker to move so she can get out. That'll teach her. I "justified" it by saying it's rude of HER to park that way and this will teach her a lesson.

I proceeded to take the kids into the office and start the day. After Gene left with the kids, I told Dr. that I needed to go move my car because it wasn't very nice of me to leave it where I parked. But apparently she had gotten out and her blue car is parked next to mine correctly this time. So, I go back into the office and tell Dr. that apparently she moved already.

Then Gene calls and he mentions that HE moved the blazer (because he didn't think it was nice of me). When he opened the blazer door to get in....the lady with the blue car from the other office came out and he said he got a "look to kill" glare from her.

So....it doesn't hit me until lunchtime.....that maybe she parked that way because she got here early and didn't want to be in the way while Gene was plowing the parking lot.

I want to thank Kimberly Geswein for THIS (go ahead....click the link, it's well worth the time to read!) entry on her blog, who put this whole thing into perspective for me. Not only this incident, but the way I've been dealing with things over the past few weeks. It's all about "circumstantial joy". Thank you Kimberly, so much for your service to Him and sharing with us. I am humbled and off to go find the lady in the blue car to apologize.